I Like Purple…

I’m not very good at speaking.  At all.  

I tend to talk too quietly or too quickly when talking to people.  People ask what I said, then I get self conscious and start mumbling.  

Whenever I finally talk enthusiastically, I’m too enthusiastic.  Often becoming loud and annoying (probably).  

I think the biggest problem I’ve been having is critiques in my art classes.  As an art student these are a fairly common occurrence.  I’m just not good at talking about people’s art.  It’s key to give people suggestions.  it counts for a grade for one thing.  More importantly, though, it helps them improve their art.  Unfortunately, I’m pretty terrible at giving suggestions.  

What if my work is worse?  How can I criticize something better than mine?

Will they be angry if I criticize it?

Is that point really that good?  What if I sound stupid?

I usually end up looking stupid.  I don’t sound stupid because I hardly make a sound at all.  I rarely speak.  When I do say something, it’s usually something ridiculously stupid like, “I like…purple!”  

I just don’t know what to say, and I don’t know how to fix the problem.  


Squeaking Art

I wonder if–during the entire expanse of World War II–Hitler ever thought, “Hmm, maybe this was a bad idea.”

The other day I was watching The Office.  It was the episode where Michael kidnaps the pizza delivery boy.  Toward the end, he realizes what he did and let him go.  That’s when I thought of the Hitler bit.  I wonder if it just hit him all of a sudden.  Oh snap!

I guess he got what he deserved.

I’ve been preparing my art portfolio for Sophomore review, which has me stressed.  (Sophomore review is why this post is short, sorry)  I have to present next week.  It’s a thirty minute presentation.  It essentially determines whether I am rubbish or not rubbish at art, and whether or not I get to continue on to 300 level photography classes.  I met with the advisor for Sophomore Review today.  “Well…you’re drawings are bad,” he told me.  He’s actually a really nice guy, but he has to be honest for this.

“I know,” I replied. “But I’m a photography major.” As if that would make some sort of magical difference or something.

“Well, you’re going to get abuse for these drawings.  If you have all your 2d stuff, and if your photos are good quality.  You’ll squeak by.”  He told.

Squeaking isn’t what I had in mind.  I know my stuff isn’t the best, but squeaking by is what I had hoped to avoid.  I was going to aim for a fifteen to seventeen out of the possible twenty points.  I wouldn’t be disappointed if I scored lower, as long as I scored at least a 9.5, the lowest possible score.  I feel like squeaking by is aiming right for the 9.5.  The problem with that is if something goes wrong there is no where else to go.  I would appreciate loads and loads of prayer.  Although, I know, pass or fail, everything is going to be fine.

That’s what’s going on with me right now.  I got a new to do list app.  It’s called Epic Win, I have it scheduled to remind me to post here every other day.  I hope that will do the trick.  You should check the app out! It’s loads of fun!

Faith As Art

So, I have this awesome 2d design class.  I’m learning all kinds of stuff.  I love it.  For our final project we have to make an image that shows identity.  So, my initial thought was that I’ll do it on what my Christian faith means to me!  I was excited!

So, class came around the next day. And I was….well I was nervous.  I didn’t know how my teacher was going to react.  She was going around to each of us individually and helping us decide what to do.  One of the other guys was talking about doing his on agnoticism.  So, I was worried what he would think and what everyone else would think. 

She came to my desk and asked what I wanted to do my project on.  I procrastinated asking her if I could do it on what my faith means to me.  I told her that I was confused about the details, I kinda was.  She said to find something unique about myself.  She suggested that I use what my faith means to me.  WHAT!?!?!  I think that it was definitely meant to be! Haha I’m really excited, except I’m not sure what to do.  No crosses, crown of thorns, hearts or cliche pictures of Jesus.  I wanted to use a broken vase (psalm 51:17), but she said that may be to literal.  I agree with her.  I think I might do something with a potter working clay, because we are the clay.  That might be too literal also.  I don’t know what to do yet, but I’ll figure it out.  I’m just so excited that I get to use my faith! 😀

Please keep me in your prayers!

It’s hard to find time :/

Hey, guys! It’s been a while since I posted my last blog. I want to start posting every night, but it’s hard to manage all my homework and post a new blog nightly. Anyway, let me you fill you in on some recent things that have happened. I’ve been researching Calvinism. I’m not Calvinist, nor am I very interested. I’ve just made some Calvinist friends and feel obligated to understand this belief system. Here’s my main beef with the people who call themselves Calvinist. Why follow John Calvin? Why not just follow what Jesus said in and through the Bible? I realize that Calvin was right on several points, but why not just do your own research into who God is and what Christianity is as opposed to just following this man? Here is my main problem with Calvin’s ideals: Election (often called predestination). It is the idea that God chose certain people to go to Heaven and certain people to go to Hell. I just don’t believe God would send people to hell. I’m not saying he can’t, because that is what we deserve. I’m just saying God loves us, therefore he gives us free will. And we have to chose whether or not to accept him as our Savior (John 3:16, John 6:35-37, John 10:9-10, 1 Timothy 2:3-4, 2 Peter 3:9, Micah 7:18 and Ezekiel 18:23,32 those are just a few verses I found). That’s really been the main thing on my mind recently. I’ve also been working on two art projects. A textured self portrait and a perspective drawing. Sand is hard to deal with. And I’m having trouble shading a sandwhich train (any suggestions would be much appreciated!) And that’s right! A sandwhich train! Ha Well, it’s late now. I’ll be sure to fill you in if anything else happens! Peace!

So it’s been 2 and 1/2 weeks….or 3 and 1/2 weeks….or maybe a month…It’s been a long time!!

So, how have ya’ll been doing? I started school at Southeastern….about a month ago, actually.  I am terribly sorry readers, I should have kept you updated, but I’ve been busy.  Sorry guys.

I have taken two tests.  I actually had a test yesterday in Survey of Western Art.  I nailed it kinda, I made a 92, which I’m pleased with.  I did a square project, which is hard to describe.   Basically we had to get 3/4″ black squares and glue them to white cardstock.  We had to make 5 designs that flow together.  It actually went pretty well.

Basic drawing….I did terrible at drawing…now I’ve gotten better.  Well, let me specify that.  I’m still no good at drawing, but God improved my attitude so I’m enjoying it regardless of how well I’m doing. haha

I recently got the Kindle app on my macbook.  I have tons of free books on there, and I bought The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo.  It’s very entertain actually, except some of the business stuff is confusing.  I don’t know why, but I enjoy reading on my computer more than I do normal paper.

I’m trying to remember everything that has happened.  I’m working on a cool project right now for 2D design, teaching us value.  It’s pretty cool.  I’ve also got a bunch due in Basic Drawing.

Oh big news!!!!  I bought a voice recorder!!!  It’s so awesome and I don’t know why!  haha  It’s so fun to record random notes throughout the day! haha

Umm…Kinda bummed out because I haven’t watched The Office in several months.

OH! Big news!  I joined the BCM here, the Baptist Collegiate Mission!  I also joined a covenant group!  I’m so pumped!  I also have an accountability partner!  The covenant group meets every Monday.  So, I’m excited!  I also just bought a memory verse packet.  So, I’m about to memorize some verses like crazy!  haha  I bought Crazy Love last night.  Mainly because I downloaded the preview on Kindle and read the first two pages of the first chapter.  The first chapter “Stop Praying” and “What if I told you to stop talking at God, but instead take a long, hard look at Him?” is the first sentence of the first chapter and those two convinced me to buy the book.  The only problem is that I’ve realized that I can’t stay focused on a real book.  I can focus like crazy when the books are one my computer.

Well, I’ve given you a lot of useless info to read and for me to spell check haha.  I’ll probably do a few plink post and then do math homework!  Peace!